Tuesday, June 02, 2009

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Issues, issues. Sometimes, don't you just wish that your brain stops working so that you don't have to think about these things? I have too many things running in my head that you I feel very tired when all I did these past 30 minutes is sit... and think!

Issue No. 1: I was quietly studying when something caught my attention online. I couldn't get over it. Gathering from what I learned from counseling sessions, they say that I must recognize this feeling to finally know its root (in other words, where is it coming from?).

Ok, I feel unimportant. It probably came from other people being chosen before me. Is that a normal reaction? Most probably? But that bothering me this much is probably not. Then what do I do with it?

I don't know. Blog about it? But will that make me feel important? Maybe not. But at least I am getting it out little by little.

Issue no. 2. It's hard working with people you who brings up negative energy in you. It's harder when you choose to work with them.

At times like these, I choose to read Psalm 140, which my friend Yaya shared to me when I was in a similar situation a few weeks back.

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Psalm 140 (King James Version)

1Deliver me, O LORD, from the evil man: preserve me from the violent man;

2Which imagine mischiefs in their heart; continually are they gathered together for war.

3They have sharpened their tongues like a serpent; adders' poison is under their lips. Selah.

4Keep me, O LORD, from the hands of the wicked; preserve me from the violent man; who have purposed to overthrow my goings.

5The proud have hid a snare for me, and cords; they have spread a net by the wayside; they have set gins for me. Selah.

6I said unto the LORD, Thou art my God: hear the voice of my supplications, O LORD.

7O GOD the Lord, the strength of my salvation, thou hast covered my head in the day of battle.

8Grant not, O LORD, the desires of the wicked: further not his wicked device; lest they exalt themselves. Selah.

9As for the head of those that compass me about, let the mischief of their own lips cover them.

10Let burning coals fall upon them: let them be cast into the fire; into deep pits, that they rise not up again.

11Let not an evil speaker be established in the earth: evil shall hunt the violent man to overthrow him.

12I know that the LORD will maintain the cause of the afflicted, and the right of the poor.

13Surely the righteous shall give thanks unto thy name: the upright shall dwell in thy presence.

Argh, I just want my mind to stop thinking for just a moment! I need to find that book 'The Power of Now?' Where is it?

Crazy thoughts.


Ria said...

I so get where you're at right now Che. That whole "I feel unimoportant" statement, it jumps right out at me! Hope things settle down for you soon :-)

myorthodoc said...

Nah, you've come a long way to be taken by this. don't think about it for a day or two. you'll see.